so big, yet so small

This is an extension of the post in Painterbaby's blog.

This time last week, I remember looking at Kira and thinking that she was getting so big. She is really growing up fast. Now, after learning that we are going to have another baby, I feel like she is so small!

And I worry about taking away the plans I had for her because of this new addition. Her music classes that she loves so much...will we still be able to go? All the special mommy time we have at the park and the zoo...will I feel up to it? Will there be time? I feel like she is losing out somehow.

Or maybe this baby will be her best playmate. Someone to hang out with and play with when she is bored. Her little sibling to teach and love.

It's just so hard to think that I will find enough love to share with the new little one when I give out so much to her. I know these feelings are normal, but it's one thing to teach it to people in class and another all together to apply it to myself!

Of course, for now, she has no idea. Except that everyone keeps telling her she is going to be the "big sister" and that there is a new baby coming! And momma wants to give her less and less milk.

So, soon, we will be starting the "big girl" training. Big girl milk, big girl bed, and maybe even big girl potty...or maybe not!